I feel positive again about America, like I haven’t in a very long time. Like when I went to D.C. a few years ago for the first time. Standing there in front of the Lincoln Memorial and thinking about the character of the man that ended slavery, standing where MLK gave that speech while tears welled up in my eyes feeling what heart that man had; with just absolute awe and the first real Patriotism I think I have ever felt. I also felt deep rooted anger and contempt when I was at the Jefferson Memorial reading the engravings in the massive marble wall that read ‘all men are created equal’ knowing that when he wrote those words he owned hundreds of slaves; even fathering many children born out of his rape. and walking through the Holocaust Museum then going to FDR’s extensive memorial knowing that he did nothing for years while Hitler murdered millions of Jews. I have never read or heard any of the past Presidents speeches really but have listened to hours upon hours and read page after page of Obama’s, Trumps and the past Republican candidates; Bernie Sanders and Hillary Clinton’s debates, speeches and interviews.
When I am listening to Donald Trump, or Ted Cruz or Ben Carlson I feel, well almost dirty. I feel ashamed and disgusted. Kind of like when looking at the statue of Jefferson or Roosevelt. And all I hear is hate; hate for America or at least disappointment, mistrust and contempt for our President, racial bigotry for him and any other color of person other than white. I hear how fucked up everything in America is; every government program, every political office held by other parties, and how every immigrant is to blame for it all. I hear misogyny outright and I hear the scripture that they refer to as if they were speaking for god. I hear hate.
Hillary speaks with Pride in America, in Obama and herself. She has honor, integrity and a love for this country. What she lacks is that hateful contempt for the institution of government. She makes me stand up a little taller, take a little more pride in this country and gives me an all around sense of glory and a sense of responsibility for our place in the world.